Ah, you're having such a rough run atm, what with lack of sleep, I'd be surprised if you felt even vaguely human!
Be kind to yourself and don't put pressure on yourself to feel anything. TBH even though I had no distractions and an easy run, it wasn't until DD was born that I felt love for her truly.
Massively big hugs JwithJ, I wish there was something I could say to make you feel better, but I am not sure what to say. I couldn't read and not let you know my heart goes out to you. You have come so far, I can't believe Bubs is nearly here, seems like yesterday we were in the TTC group lol.
I think from myself having a loss before this pregnancy I refused to believe it would result in an actual baby. So I spent the entire 1st trimester not letting myself get too excited, or bond, even at the 12 week scan. My DH would rub my belly and talk to bubs telling him to grow "big and strong, big and strong" and I would just look at him like "don't be silly, there may not be a baby yet". Well, I have managed to get past that, only as I had to, but still feel nervous that I may not get my baby in the end. But I figure once Bubs is here I will feel completely different, as I am sure you will too.
Hang in there you are right at the very end. All the best, and I look forward to seeing your Birth announcement xxx
I haven't bonded with either of my bubs before they were born. It takes a couple of months of getting to know them for me to feel attached to them. I think there is a strong expectation in society to feel instant love for our unborn/newborn babies but I see it as unrealistic to love someone you have yet to meet, especially when you don't even know what gender it is iykwim. But maybe I am just a cold hearted biatch lol
hugs til then
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